Embattled former BHC manager Raymonde Dill last night urged Police to 'bring it on' or publicly clear his name after he said his life had been turned upside down by allegations of corruption during the last 15 months.

Mr. Dill said since the allegations were first levied about Bermuda Housing Corporation in the House of Assembly in March of last year by Shadow Housing Minister Michael Dunkley he felt as though he had been found guilty and left out in the cold.

However, he said, despite being interviewed at length by detectives last year, no charges have ever been brought and he has never been on Police bail.

"I'm a free man."

Yet, Mr. Dill said, the allegations hung over him like a black cloud. The events of the last 18 months have disappointed me," said Mr. Dill.

"It was not something I expected or something that I look forward to going through again. I have been interviewed by Police and it's an experience that I do not wish to remember and I'm blocking it out of my life.

"In my mind it was an exercise in futility and I do not want to remember it. I told the Police I need to get my life back and I need to get a job in my community.

"If the Police have charges against me, bring them on. I need my day in court to deal with this, so if you have charges then let the world know because I'm stuck.

"As long as it remains unresolved, I will never be able to move forward. You give me my day in court or tell me it's finished."

Mr. Dill was suspended and then sacked as general manager of BHC in the summer of last year after Auditor General Larry Dennis was ordered to carry out an investigation into the management and financial dealings of the Government-funded agency.

At the end of Mr. Dennis' inquiry, the report, which was largely published in The Royal Gazette on Monday, was passed to the Police and the Director of Public Prosecutions and a criminal investigation was launched. Since then, Scotland Yard has been called in.

But Mr. Dill said he has continuously tried to find a new job, only to be turned down at every corner. He is now trying to make a living as a home school teacher.

"I have a strong support mechanism with my family, so I will survive," said Mr. Dill, who lives in Pembroke.

"But I have not found another career. I am an accountant with 25 years experience and have worked in three or four different industries. Any job that I apply for would involve managing people. Every employer will say to me 'Mr. Dill there is a black cloud over your head. We can't employ you because there are unsubstantiated allegations out there'.

"I'm forced to be a survivor, so I teach from home. But the last 18 months has been such a reality check about life in this country, especially for a black man who is prepared to stand up and say what he thinks."

When asked whether Mr. Dill had any contact with his former colleagues in Government, and any kind of friendship or support from them, he said there was no longer any communication. He added: "The people I look to for support are my family. I don't go to the same parties as they (old Government colleagues) do, so I don't know what their reactions are. The shackles around my neck have been placed there by Mr. Dunkley, the Auditor General, The Mid-Ocean News and The Royal Gazette. I hope that this thing is over in the media now. I suspect that after this election is over, I won't see or hear from you (Gazette reporter) again."

Asked why he had chosen to speak out, he said plainly that he was "innocent."

He said this was not meant to be an interview with a guilty man who was trying to prove his innocence.

"I am innocent," he said. "I'm trying to salvage what's left of my character and reputation in this country. I know that I'm not perfect, but I also know that I am no thief, no liar and certainly not professionally incompetent. Yet this is how I hear myself being referred to in this auditor's report."