Zero motivation
Four weeks into her 100 Day Challenge Jennifer Hume, The Royal Gazette's columnist is really struggling to find the motivation to keep going.
Like many who are participating, it is not easy to change a lifestyle you've become accustomed to over the years.
Stay with it and find small ways like Jennifer to keep yourselves going.
Tuesday, 19 February
This has been a dismal week. Apparently the participants in the Live Healthy Bermuda programme have so far lost 3,118 pounds. I don't think I have a single pound to contribute to that total. If I did at any point lose any weight, then I have surely put it back on.
Exercise accomplishments for the week: Thursday: Nothing, Friday: Nada, Saturday: Zip, Sunday: Zilch, Monday: Took a 45-minute walk around the neighbourhood. It was a gorgeous evening and I really enjoyed it, Tuesday: The copier/printer in our office broke so I spent the afternoon running up and down the hill to the other building to make copies.
Eating accomplishments for the week: I had a salad for lunch today.
I have had zero motivation this week. I'm tired of thinking about what I should be eating and how much I should be exercising. Perhaps that is part of the problem — I'm overthinking it.
At this point in the programme, I feel like this stuff should be becoming a natural part of my daily routine. Instead I'm still fretting about it and having to force myself to make the right eating choices and to get off my butt and get some exercise.
Once I do things, like my neighbourhood walks, I feel good afterwards but it's such a struggle to do it in the first place. Am I just an intrinsically lazy person? I enjoy sedentary pursuits — reading, writing, crafts, movies. I wish I was one of those people couldn't get through the day without going for a run to unwind.
I'm also great with the excuses: It'll be dark before I get back from my walk and I'm nervous walking on these roads in the dark, the parking lot at the gym was full today, I really have to alphabetise my DVD collection tonight.
Maybe it's like an addiction: No matter how much you tell someone that, for their own good, they need to quit smoking/drinking/drugs they won't be able to quit until they're ready to make the commitment to quit.
I know I need to lose some weight. I know my diet needs improvement. I need to make that final step from the realm of knowing what I need to do into the realm of actually doing it.