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Black professional women claiming time to rest

Amanda Miller Littlejohn is a writer and executive branding coach in Washington

Last December, I delivered a baby by complicated Caesarean section. I was one of those people you hear about sending work e-mails from her hospital bed. Once out of surgery and at home with my baby, I chose to forgo maternity leave and continue working.

About a month later, exhausted, I came down with a breast infection and 103.5-degree fever. As I lay in bed in a pool of sweat, trying to recover from the single-biggest medical event of my life, during a pandemic, I wondered:

Why hadn't I taken a break?

The absurdity of the situation forced me to take a long, hard look at myself. It would be different if I were responding to the demands of an unreasonable boss. In this case, I was the unreasonable one.

Then Naomi Osaka pulled out of the French Open, citing her mental health. Several weeks later, Simone Biles withdrew from Olympic competition. Unlike me, both Black women chose to put their own health and wellbeing above the demands of their professions.

It struck a chord with me and many of the Black women I know.

In my business as an executive branding coach, I work with professional Black women who, while not competing on international athletic stages, are all accustomed to the rigours of competitive work. This year my present and former clients have all said in one way or another that they’re tapped out. They have started to intentionally reclaim their rest.

One such woman is Amber Cabral, who runs a boutique diversity and inclusion firm based in Atlanta and who I am coaching. Last May after George Floyd's murder, the demand for her training services grew so much she was often working 12 to 14-hour days, sometimes at odd hours to accommodate her clients in different time zones.

Cabral was already on the brink of burnout when her godmother died suddenly in June. After the funeral, she booked a flight to Anguilla and took a week off to grieve. Days into her holiday she realised she had missed the deadline to submit a proposal to a big new client.

“I don't drop balls. That doesn't happen to me,” Cabral said. “But I was just so exhausted that when I got to Anguilla I let everything go.”

After quickly trying to pull something together on holiday, she decided to come clean and let the client know what was going on.

“I started trying to type the proposal. I started working on it and my body was like, no, we’re on vacation,” she said.

She remembered her recently declared company values. “Health, rest and wellbeing,” she said. “That's the thing we should be focusing on.”

The client was gracious and expressed hope they would work together in the future.

Like me, Cabral didn’t automatically choose to rest when extenuating personal circumstances changed her capacity.

“Black women have been groomed to overachieve,” she said. “We know how to boss up and get it done. So it’s about reprogramming the idea that it’s weak to say you can’t do more.”

Reba Peoples, a psychiatrist and founder of Imara Health and Wellness centre in Atlanta who specialises in helping women do this kind of reprogramming, says the inability to rest is equal parts history and science. Peoples was a coaching client earlier this year.

“We live in a culture that values productivity, so we’re measured by that capacity to produce,” Peoples said. “But for Black people, that idea goes even deeper because our [enslaved] ancestors were literally valued based on their capacity to produce labour. Not working up to capacity could mean beatings, or you could be sold off and separated from your family. So it was dangerous to rest, and we’ve had that encoded into our DNA.”

Last year, Kimberly Boyd Lewis, an executive coach in the DC area who I worked with in 2017, saw how dangerous it was to rest when she lost two close friends and her aunt in close succession. Then her father-in-law had a car accident that left his back broken in four places.

Grieving and exhausted, she shared her need to take a step back at work. She says her boss, a White woman, explicitly told her she needed to push through anyway.

“I was exhausted, but expectations for me in my role were very different as a Black woman,” she said. “And I had [other] White female colleagues tell me that.”

She left the job a few months later.

According to Reisha Moxley, a Nashville-based clinical psychologist who did her doctoral research on high-achieving Black women working in predominantly White spaces, such microaggressions are common, and offer another explanation for why Black women are clamouring for rest. (I have hired Moxley as a consultant.)

“There’s this process they go through,” Moxley said. “The first one is assessment of safety. How safe am I or how unsafe am I? And then you respond accordingly — you build up this armour, you code-switch, you play the game.”

And all that game-playing is exhausting.

Until this year, former client and DC-based corporate executive Quiana Smith believed that outworking others was the key to her success. Once the pandemic took hold, she found herself working 12-hour days on her firm’s busy government practice. The schedule was a lot, even for her. She took off work in July, intending to take a trip.

“I did not realise how exhausted I was until I actually stopped and I didn't do anything,” she said. “In my mind, I’m thinking I’m going to take a trip somewhere during this three-week period. And I was too exhausted to even do that,” Smith said. Instead she took a staycation, which gave her time to think and reflect.

“I focus a lot on doing and producing to feel as though I’m providing value when the truth is my being is valuable,” she said.

Peoples explained that the pandemic gave many people the space to examine what matters.

“Rest is important because having that chance for your limbic system to quiet down and your frontal lobes to come online allows you to reason,” she said. “You have space to make proactive decisions rather than reactive responses.”

That’s what happened when Christin “Cici” Battle left her job last year as executive director of a national non-profit. (I coached Battle in 2015.) She went home to Florida intending to stay for only two weeks. Two weeks turned into six months.

“I didn't have any distractions,” Battle said. “And I realised there were so many things I was doing at the expense of my wholeness.”

Battle says she has always worked a lot — she has worked at least two jobs since she was 15, so being busy is her norm. But when a friend asked what she was working so hard for, she had an epiphany.

“It forced me to reconcile within myself that a part of the hustling actually was a part of my identity. And oftentimes as a Black woman, the only time that I’m applauded is when I’m outworking someone. And usually that is at the expense of me.”

Battle now consults as a social impact strategist, community builder and what she calls “frolic facilitator”, helping others find joy and value apart from their labour.

She says Simone Biles and Naomi Osaka’s actions resonated so deeply for Black women because they signalled to the rest of us that saying no and prioritising ourselves is OK.

“Naomi and Simone both made one choice,” Battle said. “So just from [their] actions, everyone was like, ‛Oh my God. I can choose differently.’”

Personally, I have learnt that rest is something I must fight for. I took a six-week sabbatical to write and rest, which kicked off on my 40th birthday last month. I may not be risking a gold medal, but turning on my autoresponder and turning down paid work in favour of rest feels revolutionary to me. And I’m not the only one.

“Black women are saying, ‛I have value and my life matters. I’m going to honour the life that I’ve been blessed with,’” Peoples said. “Because essentially this machine is going to keep turning, whether we’re part of it or not.”

Amanda Miller Littlejohn is a writer and executive branding coach in Washington

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Published August 23, 2021 at 8:00 am (Updated August 21, 2021 at 10:00 pm)

Black professional women claiming time to rest

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